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I Tried To End My Life – 499


Ever felt hopeless or alone?

Dr. Josh Yellen hopes his story of overdose during his cancer treatments helps just one person.

One person hearing a message of hope and remembering suicide is not the answer is worth the pain and vulnerability.

Time line of events

  • 6/29/17– 7/4/17 – Saw Mom alive for the last time
  • 7/8/17 – Grand Mal seizure (Tumor in brain) * never had seizure before or after*
  • 7/11/17 – Craniotomoy to remove tumor
  • 8/3/17 – Met with MD Anderson (Neuro-Oncology)
  • 8/4/17 – 8/6/17 – Rebekah’s Bat Mitzvah
  • 8/9/17 – Returned back for end of Summer semester
  • 8/17/17 – Got fit for mask for Proton Therapy
  • 8/21/17 – Started Fall semester
  • 8/22/17 – United Heatlhcare denies Proton Therapy
  • 8/25/17 – Hurricane Harvey
  • 8/27/17 – Mom dies
  • 8/28/17 – United Healthcare closes my case due to Hurricane and switch to BC/BS
  • 8/31/17 – Fly back to CA for Mom’s funeral
  • 9/1/17 – Switch from United Healthcare to BC/BS (University of Houston decision)
  • 9/10/17 – Return back to work after Hurricane and Mom’s funeral
  • 9/11/17 – Approved for Proton Therapy
  • 9/18/17 – Start Proton Therapy
  • 10/26/17 – Finish Proton Therapy
  • 11/30/17 – Start Chemotherapy
  • 12/14/17 – 12/18/17 – Moved offices
  • 12/21/17 – Saw results of 1st round of chemotherapy (sympathetic reaction – stopped sleeping)
  • 1/4/18 – Started round 2 of chemotherapy (much stronger than round 1)
  • 1/18/18 – experience symptoms of depression and anxiety
  • 5/15/18 – Finish round 6 of chemotherapy (terminate early)

What could I have done different?

More regular / scheduled contact

Phone calls instead of texts

What resources do you recommend pertaining to Overdose and suicide

Overdose; ATsCare; Suicide  ATsCare Program –  Peer to peer grief counseling, support and encouragement

This is a phenomenal program that will re-shape all of your life interactions and help give you confidence to step into really tough situations.


Do YOU have a story to share and offer hope?

I hope your situation has not come to self harm.

I hope you have surrounded yourself with people who are willing to step in and lift you up.

Would you like to share your story?

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Josh Yellen – text or call him 985-351-7994

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Father, Husband Runner, Cancer Survivor.  Ryan Green is an amazing resource for almost all things running related. He shares his story about battling cancer and how that relates to being an Athletic Trainer.
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